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Or, at least, if I did it feels far away.
In the morning there was serving. Feed the dog, feed the cat, feed the rat, feed yourself. Pick up the sister and bring her to her playdate, work for a little while then bring her back home. Do the dishwasher.
I forgot to do the laundry. Or maybe I just didn’t do it, because the dryer might be broken and I will have to ask about that.
In the afternoon there was homework. Applications, Federal Reserve notes, Ceremony, correo. I didn’t even get to biology.
I saved a lot of it for tomorrow.
In the evening there was dinner. I had wanted to watch a certain movie, but the will left me. I thought I would write, and I did. It’s just that they called me and told me they still wanted me to apply for a scholarship, even though it is ludicrous to ask someone to write you a letter of recommendation within three days, even though I had to write about behind a humanitarian even though I am pretty sure writing is still the entertainment industry. I wrote 3,000 words in three hours.
Most of that paper is a lie. Fabrication. Bull. Not the information, it’s true. But it’s still a lie to try and get something when you don’t want it in the first place.
Now it is night. There was coughing, so I stopped it. There was cold, so I warmed it. There was silence, so I dispelled it. There was nobody, and I don’t know what to do about that.
Brittle girl, brittle world. If even you can call her that.
It’s hard to remember pain when you are content, or even happy. It can be a curse.
It’s hard to remember joy when you are apathetic, and a shell. It is merely unfortunate.
There is coughing again. The drops are cherry flavored. I will have to stop it again.